Am I SICK(MY MIND)? If yes what is my disease called and how to cure myself?!?

You not crazy I actually think the same way, like I ask what would happen if the big bang did not happen, it's best to follow these thoughts they will actually increase your intelligent, it also show that you anaylize your past decisions to see if they were good or bad for you in the long haul, my problem is that I can't get to sleep sometime because of out so the best thing to do is watch a really boring old black and white movie, that usually helps clean my mind.