Did my aunt really raise me, or even love me?

I lived with my aunt for 6 years, after moving from place to place. She acts nice at times but them when she is in her room she speaks harshly about everyone. When I was younger I was a troubled child. My mother and father were negligent. The court ordered me to not live with my mother but still my aunt let her stay with us. My mother would tell me of how I will die and she will be rich, over and over. My aunt would call me stupid and once tried to choke me. Yesterday I confronted her about the situation and she asked that she did not take me in for the money. Also I told her I do not consider her family and she did not raise me. Most of the positivety I have learned came from friends and other family members. She then said that right now there is no money involved but then I said, "That is not true, I pay you $250 a month to stay here." I am 21 and trying to go into school. Then this morning she started yelling in her room saying hurtfull things about me. She has done so much. The only thing she taught me was: How to manage money; Compare yourself to other; Respect those higher that you even if they bring you harm; In life, you are bound to feel stress; and do your best to be the best out of everyone. All of this is mainly on materialism and my aunt seems like a materialistic woman. She showed love for the first year then stopped. Never did she sit down with me to talk, positively, about myself. I mean, I have feelings and all she does is stay inside her room and talks to herself. Now I am not up for one sided ness but I will admitt my own faults. I have stolen change from my aunt because I was afraid to ask for money because I felt bad that I had to even though she gave me allowance. (It was for food in school) I have broke a wall lining on the wall of my bedroom because (her house) because I was having a tantrum (emotional stress from confusion of my past) she choked me because I threw a clock at the door. And when I had troubles with homeworl she told me to go to a tutor and when I went to the tutor they were always busy... -sigh- Well tell me, does she even love me? Did she even care?